Yet Another goodbye

12:49 PM Edit This 0 Comments »
Goodbye my lover.. goodbye my friend..
everyone's heading to their future, they say. It's what you should do too
but I can't do it dear, it's not that I'm only emotionally crippled and attached to this freaky country. Truth is that I don't have an option.
With each goodbye I'm losing another piece of me.. and I'm becoming a hallow version of me and I don't really like it..
I better numb the feelings away!

I HATE IDEAL PEOPLE

3:24 AM Edit This 0 Comments »
I mean those people who claim to be perfect, they're getting on my nerves.. they havet his dull look on their pale faces.. and fighting to do the "best" they can..
they'er so annoying.. they're pulloting minds with their crap about perfectness in every mean..
they're not only seeking perfection..they also hate and look LOW on decent people..
this is insane..really
dedicated to my family
with anger,
scincerly

write WRITE!

12:15 AM Edit This 0 Comments »
i wanna write it down.. everythign anything i go through or notice or face i so badly want to type it down to get it into words but im never good with words
it always gets taught when it comes to feelings, when it comes to regrets hopes or loss
i will try harder.. i will

syrian homosexuals

12:02 AM Edit This 1 Comment »
the ultimate never ending search for someone who feels the same has always been really draining. you go to "kung fu chat" (123sat) and you see every kind of PSYCHOS.
then you think of a more specific place, you register in AE (After Ellen), well it's one of my fav sites but it seems like no one has discovered it yet. well you'd probably meet some of the local lesbians you already know. gaydargirls same issues, psychos and sex freaks and well when you're so lucky you'd get to meet a decent person once a year.
so shu mne3mol? like seriously what's the solution? i mean in this ultra homophobic country how do gay people breathe?
we don't. i've always felt like i ran out of air to inhale. i suffocate within the lies i make. the masks become like a fist around my face and theres no way out.
but HOPE shall always be there.... the Forgotten Hopes